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I feel like not fully grown up/mature

Alien0n3arth

Does anyone else feel like this? It’s so hard to regulate emotions after someone screamed at me or I had a misunderstanding and feel like a total idiot and loser for not understanding or asking questions. Strong light, sounds of scanners, people talking and laughing loud, strollers being moved on the floor and many other sounds that usually don’t make me feel disregulated today made me crazy and crying I had to hide so no one sees me crying. It was so hard to calm down and soothe myself. I pressed my forehead with my hands and sat for few minutes. This is why I feel like a child in an adult body. Terribly embarrassing. I’m high functioning- I’m a child functioning in adult world and trying to cope. Does anyone have any thoughts, advice, experience, stories to share, I’ll be happy. 

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  • Hi there I'm new to this site,  I just been reading the posts on here,  I have been recently trying to come to terms with my autism as over the years it has been something that i have felt ashamed of and not wanted to discuss, thankfully i have a very supportive partner of 15 years who has been helping me .  It is interesting you mention maturity, as I am very immature and tend to deal with things in a very teenage boy manner more like that of a 15 year old boy than a man of 44 ,  yes i can do adult things and behave in an adult manner but it is something i find very challenging.  Thankfully my partner is very good with me and set's boundaries and routines for me and does the adult thing of making sure bills are paid as I've proved on many occasions I just can't cope with it and have melowns. Sometimes I get paranoid what people think to our relationship as it's not what most would see as a normal relationship,  so I end up getting myself in a right mess about it and my partner is saying to reassure me it's fine and that he is okay with it,  I keep trying to be more manly and mature but I find it so difficult , Im just so Worriedparanoid , he will keep telling me that he loves me for who I am but I get so worked up that i cry

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  • Hi there I'm new to this site,  I just been reading the posts on here,  I have been recently trying to come to terms with my autism as over the years it has been something that i have felt ashamed of and not wanted to discuss, thankfully i have a very supportive partner of 15 years who has been helping me .  It is interesting you mention maturity, as I am very immature and tend to deal with things in a very teenage boy manner more like that of a 15 year old boy than a man of 44 ,  yes i can do adult things and behave in an adult manner but it is something i find very challenging.  Thankfully my partner is very good with me and set's boundaries and routines for me and does the adult thing of making sure bills are paid as I've proved on many occasions I just can't cope with it and have melowns. Sometimes I get paranoid what people think to our relationship as it's not what most would see as a normal relationship,  so I end up getting myself in a right mess about it and my partner is saying to reassure me it's fine and that he is okay with it,  I keep trying to be more manly and mature but I find it so difficult , Im just so Worriedparanoid , he will keep telling me that he loves me for who I am but I get so worked up that i cry

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