Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone else feel like this? It’s so hard to regulate emotions after someone screamed at me or I had a misunderstanding and feel like a total idiot and loser for not understanding or asking questions. Strong light, sounds of scanners, people talking and laughing loud, strollers being moved on the floor and many other sounds that usually don’t make me feel disregulated today made me crazy and crying I had to hide so no one sees me crying. It was so hard to calm down and soothe myself. I pressed my forehead with my hands and sat for few minutes. This is why I feel like a child in an adult body. Terribly embarrassing. I’m high functioning- I’m a child functioning in adult world and trying to cope. Does anyone have any thoughts, advice, experience, stories to share, I’ll be happy.
I do adult things but don't feel like an adult at all, a lot of people say I'm very childlike. I recently had a major meltdown, which was burnout-induced, and regressed a lot, struggling to do certain things that I've always been able to do. This includes any socialising, booking appointments, being independent, having to be accompanied everywhere...
it's a weird feeling as I can drive, I work full-time, I'm married, and I am saving up to buy my first house. Yet I struggle to do things that most people can do without hesitation. I too struggle to manage my emotions, and find it hard to cope with bright lights, strong smells, and other sensory stuff. I usually just mask my feelings until I'm at home where I can either let it all out or spend some time doing the things I enjoy to forget about it.
I also dissociate a lot and feel like I'm not fully in control of my body, and like I'm just a passenger watching behind my eyes.
i feel like you just described my own experience and feelings. Thank you for your response in this post!