Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm in my mid 20s, and I started doing this when I was 13.
Quite often, if I'm stressed or angry, I'll skip meals because I just won't feel like it. If I've screwed up, I'll punish myself by not eating.
If I'm angry with someone, my way of sticking it to them is to not eat. It's kind of me being spiteful, like "that person is angry with me therefore I'll hurt myself".
There's probably little logic to it (!) but for me, it's a form of taking back some control.
I’m so sorry that you are going through such a challenge. When I was in my mid 20’s I had a lot of stress and it might have something to do with me refusing food at all, like literally whole days I didn’t eat or only one small meal a day. Food seemed gross to me, but I can’t say if it was me wanting to punish myself or something else… I was just not hungry and food seemed gross I couldn’t touch it or smell it it made me sick. I didn’t want to lose weight I wasn’t pregnant either. After some time it passed itself but it was generally dangerous. I have fallen unconscious few times and I lost too much weight. I had such a period twice. It’s better to speak to a doctor about it. I should have done it but unfortunately I often didn’t take care of myself as I should. Now I learn to do it better.
I probably should too. I didn't think it was linked to anything though, just a "I'm sad and I feel sick, therefore if I eat I'll vomit it all up" thing.
Doesn’t matter to what your eating issue/disorder may be linked, it’s always good to look into it as it’s essential for health generally for everyone. There is a risk of misdiagnosis for example anorexia, where it may be not the case. But still it’s better to have it consulted and in case if you dont agree with the specialist, to change the doctor.