How do I know if I’m masking?

I’m a woman in my 30s and haven’t yet been diagnosed, and only recently familiar with masking and what it is. The problem is, I feel I have been masking my entire life and now don’t know what I am masking and what is the real me. Any tips on how to work out what I am masking and what is the real me?

I score just over the threshold on the RAADS-R test and the AQ50. However score very high on a masking/camouflaging test. It also makes me wonder, am I actually autistic or am I looking for answers that aren’t there?

Parents
  • I don't generally know when I'm masking but I know if I've been masking because afterwards at the end of the day I am utterly exhausted and overwhelmed. I need to rest, recharge the batteries, to recover and if I don't then I end up burning out. 

    I really need to start recognising when I'm masking but it's something I really struggle with. There's always so much to process and think about. It's difficult.

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  • I don't generally know when I'm masking but I know if I've been masking because afterwards at the end of the day I am utterly exhausted and overwhelmed. I need to rest, recharge the batteries, to recover and if I don't then I end up burning out. 

    I really need to start recognising when I'm masking but it's something I really struggle with. There's always so much to process and think about. It's difficult.

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