Healthy outlook > Mortality

Sorry if this is an upsetting topic for some (myself included).

I really struggle this the "D word" - I find it pre-occupies my mind progressively more so as I get older, and it's always been a topic which I hate / fear - if I overthink it I can get into something of a panic.

So I'm interested - how would you describe your relationship with this topic?

I'm wondering if its an autistic trait, and whether anyone has been able to develop a healthy outlook on the topic, and if so how. 

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  • It is something that I am at peace with, Im 54 and see that I have about 25 years left, so I will make the most of them. In the past 4 years I have seen both parents die in similar circumstances in hospital. I know two things, first I don't want to die in hospital, I want to die feeling I am in the world, even just sitting on a bence in the fresh air. Second I do not want to go into a care home, I will end it all before then. The last 4 years have been hell and after that  I would see it as a release, no more anxiety, no more fighting to have a normal life. 

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  • It is something that I am at peace with, Im 54 and see that I have about 25 years left, so I will make the most of them. In the past 4 years I have seen both parents die in similar circumstances in hospital. I know two things, first I don't want to die in hospital, I want to die feeling I am in the world, even just sitting on a bence in the fresh air. Second I do not want to go into a care home, I will end it all before then. The last 4 years have been hell and after that  I would see it as a release, no more anxiety, no more fighting to have a normal life. 

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