Published on 12, July, 2020
Sorry if this is an upsetting topic for some (myself included).I really struggle this the "D word" - I find it pre-occupies my mind progressively more so as I get older, and it's always been a topic which I hate / fear - if I overthink it I can get into something of a panic.So I'm interested - how would you describe your relationship with this topic?I'm wondering if its an autistic trait, and whether anyone has been able to develop a healthy outlook on the topic, and if so how.
I remember going through a phase in my twenties when I was really worried I was going to die before 30 for some reason. It wasn’t death itself that worried me, it was dying before my time. As it happens I am 34 now.
Do you suffer from depression? In my experience, these thoughts can go hand in hand with it.
Interesting. Now I've had kids (and my daughter herself is autistic) I feel like my goal is an age where she / our kids / my wife don't need me any more. Hopefully I get to see them settle down and be happy. The idea of anything happening before that time is definitely something I worry about.I do suffer from mild depression yes, and anxiety. Having treatment for both but I find it a frustrating process and that my therapist perhaps isn't the most effective, but then I become self critical / analytical and assume its me being "impossible" to help!