Healthy outlook > Mortality

Sorry if this is an upsetting topic for some (myself included).

I really struggle this the "D word" - I find it pre-occupies my mind progressively more so as I get older, and it's always been a topic which I hate / fear - if I overthink it I can get into something of a panic.

So I'm interested - how would you describe your relationship with this topic?

I'm wondering if its an autistic trait, and whether anyone has been able to develop a healthy outlook on the topic, and if so how. 

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  • I used to obsess over it. Not being dead, but the process of dying. I've watched family members die slowly of illnesses and it's literally torture. So I bought a lethal dose of a medication online and put it aside in case I develop anything terminal. I almost never worry about it now.

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  • I used to obsess over it. Not being dead, but the process of dying. I've watched family members die slowly of illnesses and it's literally torture. So I bought a lethal dose of a medication online and put it aside in case I develop anything terminal. I almost never worry about it now.

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