Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm suspecting I am on the autism spectrum, because my daughter is, and understanding her needs made me realise a lot more about myself seeming very similar. So I've been thinking a lot about what I actually do and how it wasn't as "normal" as I thought. One thing I do is basically have conversations in my head a lot, like I'm trying to imagine what the confident, neurotypical version of me would be like, does anyone else do this?
To explain further, here is what I mean. Depending on who I want to talk to, I'll feel different levels of anxiety - the more familiar I am with someone, the less anxious I'll be. But every time I will still follow this pattern:
I just don't imagine a neurotypical person doing any of this.
I can definitely relate! I plan out conversations in my head and then get frustrated when the other person doesn’t stick to the “script”.
Everyone has self talk going on in their heads, so it's not just ASD people, but maybe we do it more because of difficulties with socialising?