Published on 12, July, 2020
I have reached the lowest of the low and I feel like what is the point. I have tried telling Rikki how I feel and what I need in life. All I want in life is a friend I can eat junk food with to snuge up to if I’m feeling low a shoulder to cry on when I need it but Rikki doesn’t understand the bond between us is unreal we have both been there for each other after my mum died he was there after s heart attack and open heart surgery I was there for him and when I’ve had my low moments he been there. Two autistic adults there for one another but recently that hasn’t happened today I thought unblocked me we can speak only for me to *** things up again and he does block me again. He says my behaviour is toxic but I don’t mean it to be just need a friend I can snuggle up to a shoulder tcry on and a friend I can eat junk food with to make me feel better but Rikki can’t see that at the moment how can I help him see it? How can I help him understand?
This is going to sound harsh, but having read the ongoing saga of your friendship troubles and the things that you have done (and posted about), I think that your friend has maybe had enough.
What sounded like a good freindship has now potentially been ruined by your want for more / misreading the situation.And then we have the posts you made about drinking, vaping, weed....not good signs and could be an indication of your personality traits. Maybe that is why your friend doesn't want to have anything to do with you.
What you need to be really careful about is continuing to push the matter and not take "no" for an answer - that could lead to some serious consequences inlcuding claims of harrasment, intimidation or stalking.
To me (and I may have interpretted things completely wrong), the best thing you could do is move on.