Published on 12, July, 2020
I highly regret what I did yesterday and I really don’t know how to fix things. All I want to do is drink away my sorrows drink to forget and it’s not just that early on I went over a friends and smoked a joint the weed was quite strong. I am really struggling with my mental health and at the moment I feel that alcohol and weed is my only comfort I know it’s wrong and it won’t help with anything but I just feel like what’s the point let’s get drunk to dull away the pain only for it to come back. Someone said to me once true friends always come back and forgive you so I hope that is true with Rikki as he is a true friend.
That's positive for you that Rikki still wants to be friends. I hope you're feeling better about yourself now. Enjoy your group tomorrow, I really hope you have a good time and can put what happened behind you now.
Update I have heard from Rikki he has forgiven me but wants us to just remain as friends nothing more for now. He is still not ready to talk yet he needs another day or 2 and this evening I’m going to my board game club and tomorrow evening I’m going to a different board game group called rainbow gamers tomorrow evening to try to distract myself.
Please don't be too hard on yourself and put yourself through more pain. Give Rikki time. Time heals and right now he may just need some time to himself but I'm sure once he's calmer he'll be in touch again. For now try not to worry and be kind to yourself. You don't deserve any further pain. Take care of yourself x.
I know that you feel pain from regretting something you said to Rikki, but don't be so hard on yourself. You said what you said. Who knew that it would upset him like that? You couldn't have predicted that it would end up the way it did. But I guess the only person who could give you comfort would be knowing that Rikki is okay with you again. Maybe if he has some space to cool off, he'll talk to you again. In the mean time, maybe eat your favorite food, watch your favorite show, and just take it easy.
You'll be okay, he will forgive you in time. Just takes a little while.