Published on 12, July, 2020
It's just mentally tough. I really have no one to talk to. I only have work colleagues, and that's it. It's a very sad situation being like this. I'm different to other people and i just can't accept i'll never make friends. It's missing out on life, this s*** is. I do deeply wish i could make friends - i long for more conmections,and having a few guys to hang out with would be great. I always am alone and it takes a toll on my psyche. I've wanted friends for years, but I've never been successful. At 20, should i accept i'll never make the friends and memories i want?
I relate with this a lot. I've always loved the idea of having friends, a single friend would do but I've never been able to... In fact at times I feel incapable of making friends. I've studied how to make friends, ready up so much and it's never worked. I literally have no idea how to make friends or even talk to people without being socially awkward.
Being social makes me so anxious and uncomfortable, I think it puts people off me before they even get to know me.
I was at uni last year and there was such an uncomfortable atmosphere with my roomie.
How did manage to get through uni in the awkward atmosphere you describe? When you try to make friends, and break the proverbial ice, how does it go?
I think masking mostly is what's got me through so far and what got me through school. It goes ok but generally I don't do much social interacting, not unless I absolutely have to anyway. I'm still trying to find new ways of being better socially, I listen to what other people say and how they talk and I'm trying to mimic that.