Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi I have been posting a lot about my boyfriend on here and well we not together but our friendship and our bond is unreal. I have been putting pressure on him for us to be more than friends to a point where it’s been causing us a lot of damage. He has said that he is unsure of what he wants and has said a relationship could be possible but again it might not happen. Today my mental health was extremely bad I was with him all day and I really struggled wanting to self harm feeling useless but he offered me comfort and support. I have been thinking and I’m not ready to be in a relationship and if me and him decide yes go for it great, but if not and I meet someone else then I will tell them that me and my friend have this amazing bond that I will not stop being his friend. Hope I am making the right decision here.
My condolences, I lost my nan during the Covid-19 outbreak.
Does your dad still talk to you?
It’s complicated as well more than best friends and no I’ve been depressed since my dad moved away. My mum died a few years ago complications from Covid that caused a heart condition. My dad met someone else and has moved away
Unreal, as in an extremely close sense, where they make you feel at home?
Are you currently in separation and are depressed without them? I have been through a similar experience with someone I know and care for.