Focus and paying attention

@Longman -

It is true, I can only seem to have one or no process going in at one time.  If one person is talking to me, but another person is standing beside me talking to someone else, I have trouble telling the difference between the 2 and I have to tell the person I can't hear them.  Also, I feel asleep on a speaker once (a large music speaker) when I was staying round at a friends house.  I've also had people who have had to physically touch me because I haven't noticed them talking to me.  While it was playing music.  It was as if the sound wasn't there to me.  I have lost track of looking after myself.  Your suggestion of eye covers is one I haven't thought of.  I think as long as my bed is clear of belongings it shouldmake a suitable area.  I bought big over ear headphones too to wear when noie gets a bit much, sometimes even if I'm not listening to music they are quite comforting.  I should use them more.  But, you're right.  You've reminded me that when things become too much I do overload.  At the moment it's nearly a year since I lost my grandmother, who was also on the autistic spectrum and was like my second mother, and I own a house with my ex, which I don't stay in, but I rent my half out and I don't want to be a part of that anymore.  It's just a lot for this time of year...

@IntenseWorld

I've never thought of Dermatillomania before.  I will find that if I'm sitting looking at the TV, or something like that, I will sit and pick at my skin.  I do it on my legs and face mainly, or just anwhere where I feel there is something on my skin I need to get rid of.  I have oily skin and acne, even though my acne has cleared up a lot over the years, but I feel lik I have to get the 'evil' out of my skin and if I can get even the smallest amount of dirt out of my skin, or if there is dry skin, I will go out of my way to have a go at it.  I can't stand the thought of having something on my skin that should be there.  I'm terrified of tics and leeches too, so there's probably something there that's linked.  My boyfriend gets concerned if I come out of the bathroom with a red face. 

Also, I do, most of the time, work on a flexitime.  It's just when I'm covering holidays I have a time to be in at work.  My line manager knows of my problems and they are quite supportive of me.  It's mainly myself who is giving me the hard time.  It's also harder because I was told it was 99.99% (without officials saying so the doctors weren't allowed to sa 100%) likely I had Asperger's syndrome, but living in the north of scotland, and being an adult, there was no one willig to put me through a diagnosis, so without that 'official' status I don't feel worthy of people being lenient with me.  I sit at my desk with my big headphones on sometimes, but the big bosses sometimes walk past and was wondering why I was listening to music during work (headphones weren't even plugged in).  Again, work is supportve, it's mainly me that's being hard on myself.

As a new years resolution I'm determined to gethe diagnosis, as it's been 3 years since it was first mentioned, and to also get the support I need as I've moved to a new city and my current doctor wants to treat everything with medication, which isn't really helping long term.  I really want more CBT, so I should try and focus on that.

Thanks for taking time to get back to me

@Longman -

It is true, I can only seem to have one or no process going in at one time.  If one person is talking to me, but another person is standing beside me talking to someone else, I have trouble telling the difference between the 2 and I have to tell the person I can't hear them.  Also, I feel asleep on a speaker once (a large music speaker) when I was staying round at a friends house.  I've also had people who have had to physically touch me because I haven't noticed them talking to me.  While it was playing music.  It was as if the sound wasn't there to me.  I have lost track of looking after myself.  Your suggestion of eye covers is one I haven't thought of.  I think as long as my bed is clear of belongings it shouldmake a suitable area.  I bought big over ear headphones too to wear when noie gets a bit much, sometimes even if I'm not listening to music they are quite comforting.  I should use them more.  But, you're right.  You've reminded me that when things become too much I do overload.  At the moment it's nearly a year since I lost my grandmother, who was also on the autistic spectrum and was like my second mother, and I own a house with my ex, which I don't stay in, but I rent my half out and I don't want to be a part of that anymore.  It's just a lot for this time of year...

@IntenseWorld

I've never thought of Dermatillomania before.  I will find that if I'm sitting looking at the TV, or something like that, I will sit and pick at my skin.  I do it on my legs and face mainly, or just anwhere where I feel there is something on my skin I need to get rid of.  I have oily skin and acne, even though my acne has cleared up a lot over the years, but I feel lik I have to get the 'evil' out of my skin and if I can get even the smallest amount of dirt out of my skin, or if there is dry skin, I will go out of my way to have a go at it.  I can't stand the thought of having something on my skin that should be there.  I'm terrified of tics and leeches too, so there's probably something there that's linked.  My boyfriend gets concerned if I come out of the bathroom with a red face. 

Also, I do, most of the time, work on a flexitime.  It's just when I'm covering holidays I have a time to be in at work.  My line manager knows of my problems and they are quite supportive of me.  It's mainly myself who is giving me the hard time.  It's also harder because I was told it was 99.99% (without officials saying so the doctors weren't allowed to sa 100%) likely I had Asperger's syndrome, but living in the north of scotland, and being an adult, there was no one willig to put me through a diagnosis, so without that 'official' status I don't feel worthy of people being lenient with me.  I sit at my desk with my big headphones on sometimes, but the big bosses sometimes walk past and was wondering why I was listening to music during work (headphones weren't even plugged in).  Again, work is supportve, it's mainly me that's being hard on myself.

As a new years resolution I'm determined to gethe diagnosis, as it's been 3 years since it was first mentioned, and to also get the support I need as I've moved to a new city and my current doctor wants to treat everything with medication, which isn't really helping long term.  I really want more CBT, so I should try and focus on that.

Thanks for taking time to get back to me