Hi everyone
Just wanted to ask anyone who may have been in my situation for a little shove in the right direction. I am 49 years old and have recently discovered my 8yr old boy is autistic. the strange thing is I have always known he was different and have always had a very strong connection with him. He is undiagnosed atm but seeing a therapist who specialises in autism. I have completely immersed myself into researching about autism to a point where I really started to understand that I could also be on the spectrum. Then as my wife has gained knowledge she told me she thinks I could be on the spectrum. I took this literally and thought it would be a good idea to ask my son’s therapist the question. She told me that I am very possibly on the spectrum and this is without me revealing any of my traits. I went back to my wife to tell her and she was mortified that I had asked the question and ended the conversation. Although I weirdly feel slightly relieved as it explains a lot I’m also very afraid as I know I am different to neurotypical people. On top of that I feel exhausted all the time as I am constantly masking to fit in and I don’t even feel that I can let my guard down at home because of my wife’s reaction. I suppose from her point of view she is trying to deal with the fact our youngest boy is autistic without me being in the mix as well. I don’t even know how to approach this again as I find it hard to communicate sometimes as I fear what the outcome will be. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
