Published on 12, July, 2020
I really struggle to just live and i find it hard to explain, i dont get the help i need because of this. Talking and thinking about my feelings is really hard, and i dont even really know what is wrong a lot of the time, but i really feel like i need help and i dont know where to start. I cant make friends properly, i cant keep relationships in my own family, i struggle to leave the house most days and to try new things. My daily routine has slowly got to a point where everything takes place within my house, and now i feel so anxious whenever i need to do anything but sit on my sofa and stim. i dont know where to start to get better and i live at university, barely having gone to class in the last month. I dont have much of a support system but refuse to give up on my degree and move home as i have less than a year left. I am proud i have made it this far, but i cant help but think i will never be able to live a life like everyone else and be happy. I'm really tired of everyday being such a struggle.
My main form of support was my boyfriend, but he broke up with me and now everything feels so different and my life has changed so much, i dont even know where to begin or who i am outside of my struggles. I dont enjoy anything anymore, not even the two topics that i used to get obsessed over.
it feels alienating, ive never met anyone like me before and i feel so alone.
Hi, I just wanted to say you are not alone, you might not trust me, which is fair enough, but I am like you, just bottling up how I felt and focusing on uni until I couldn't really do that and I needed to rest but I just couldn't I kept trying to fix it and it was making it worse. So now I am just tired and realised I needed to ask for help. I can't really help you, sorry. I can ask some questions. How is your sleep? Are you getting enough? Is it possible to send an email to your tutor explaining what is going on? They may be able to help you more. Here is a link on studying, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IlU-zDU6aQ0, and here is a link on jobs https://www.evenbreak.co.uk/article/why-all-candidates-should-visit-the-career-hive. Which might be useful. The most useful things is probably sending an email to your tutor, if you think you can do that. They may be able to help they may not, but they might be able to point you to some university resources you have access to. Sorry, I couldn't be more helpful.