Published on 12, July, 2020
My life is falling apart. I am a delusional, broken failure.
A lot of struggle and failing which also led to a lot of self loathing and hatred.
Single most of my life, just been made redundant and the whole unmasking (AuDHD) at 45 isn't any fun.
I have friends, which tbh, makes the whole ending it even harder. But they will leave me / forget me soon enough. I just need to deactivate my FB account and just stop socialising.
Life sucks so much and it is unfair.
I am apparently very intelligent, but that doesn't' help. Some say I am pretty, but that doesn't help either.
Hi, my son suffers from depression and it's awful. Have you seen a doctor or psychiatrist? Please keep going.
Medicating or drugging myself won't make my life any better. And I am on meds, I reduced them though. It won't make a difference. I tried to get away from that company for years and failed, even on a much higher dose of meds. I reduced them before I've been made redundant. I have been single most of my life on higher doses of meds too. Can't see how that would make a difference.
What would make your life better?
Thank you for replying. I can empathise with that. For years I worried where I was going to live long term because I was renting privately and unemployed. I would also like to find love although I don’t know whether I would be able to cope with living with someone.
If you have just been made redundant won’t you get a redundancy payment? It won’t last forever but should give you a temporary breathing space.
You say you have been single most of your life. Does this mean you have been in a relationship at least once?