Published on 12, July, 2020
My life is falling apart. I am a delusional, broken failure.
A lot of struggle and failing which also led to a lot of self loathing and hatred.
Single most of my life, just been made redundant and the whole unmasking (AuDHD) at 45 isn't any fun.
I have friends, which tbh, makes the whole ending it even harder. But they will leave me / forget me soon enough. I just need to deactivate my FB account and just stop socialising.
Life sucks so much and it is unfair.
I am apparently very intelligent, but that doesn't' help. Some say I am pretty, but that doesn't help either.
You have recently reduced your medication and you have been made redundant. These are 2 big changed. You may well be experiencing some withdrawal symptoms from reducing your meds. I learnt llater in life that those feelings pass. I didnt realise it when i was younger and i would be so overwhelmed with sadness and anxiety. But it passes. I have learnt to accept that this is how i am feeling today and hope for a better day ttomorrow.x