Published on 12, July, 2020
What has helped you?
Age? I'm 26 but I feel older and younger at the same time.
I want to go back to how I was prior to my teenage years. I've internalised a lot of not very nice things. I'm working through it in therapy.
It's weird. I don't care what people think about my (somewhat uncool) interests but I do care what they think about my appearance and personality.
I do want people to like me but I will admit to taking that and running a mile.
I wanted to be everyone's friend, as a kid, and became expendable.
However, I now focus on quality of connections; not quantity. I do know what's going on locally, but don't spread it out; in public.
Yeah, I shifted towards that in recent years but I didn't take it seriously enough. As a result I was subconsciously ruining my friendships.