Published on 12, July, 2020
I have just been diagnosed with Autism with a PDA profile and ADHD at the age of 18.
I have also just moved to London for university and I am struggling with self identity and understanding who i am.
I have been masking my entire life and adapting myself when i am around different people which has really affected my mental health and self esteem and i would like to discover who i am without having to put on an act and to embrace my neurodivergent traits.
Whilst in the assessment for my diagnosis I explained how I act differently and have different personality traits when i am with different people and am in different scenarios. I was asked which version of myself was closest to the true me and it was then that i realised that i have no idea. I am now really struggling with beginning the unmasking process as i have no idea who I am and which traits of mine are what I have put on due to masking and which are truly me.
I am very happy that the university course that i have started is very free and creative and will allow me to unmask without feeling judged as there are many people who are neurodivergent within this career sector and course.
Does anyone have any tips on how to begin the unmasking process and to discover my true personality as i am feeling very lost and unsure of what my next steps are.
Thank you for reading
I think a good starting point would be thinking about the things which make you the happiest. The things that don't drain your energy.
I'm in the same boat as you though.