Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm currently abroad which means I don't have access to the support systems I've relied on for the past 3 months.
I've spoken about said situation on here a couple of times but I seem to flip flop between feeling determined to turn my life around and feeling angry and frustrated that it happened in this way. Context is here: community.autism.org.uk/.../i-m-in-an-incredibly-isolating-situation
I know my life needed changing, as well as my behaviour/attitude and everything else, but thousands of strangers online screaming at me calling me pretty much every name under the sun (however justified it was) doesn't do me any favours. If anything it makes me want to give up.
I'm at that stage where I really don't know if I can hold on much longer. I can't see much hope for the future and I'm still grieving the loss of my wider support network. I don't feel like I want to make new friends and I don't see why I should have to "get over" it.
This is just a vent.
Dear HMO25,
We are really sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time at the moment.
If you are having a difficult time, you can call the Samaritans any time, day or night, on 116 123 or email jo@samaritans.org
Other helplines and listening services:
If you feel you need more urgent help, our website lists some options you could consider https://www.autism.org.uk/what-we-do/help-and-support/urgent-help
Kind Regards,
Rosie Mod
Thank you. I tried to find the autism helpline a while back but it seemingly doesn't exist anymore.
Shout didn't seem to work for me when I tried it either.
Everybody here will help you and support you.