Published on 12, July, 2020
I am autistic level 2 or moderate to severe. My entire life I have loved to play with toys. It can be Lego, stuffed animals, bouncing balls, water toys, kinetic sand
I just love these things and many other toys. But I should not I am adult since long time.It feels great playing with these things but I also like doing some grown up things too.When feeling overwhelmed I still even am thumb sucking or use something else also when tired or not feeling well.When eating I prefer just using my fingers at home only fork or spoon when not at home but it is a struggle.I just feel the best when I can be myself.I am just like this and was taught be ashamed of this but I dont want to be ashamed this is who I amIs it okay or am I wrong in some way?
Hi Sebastian! All of these things are okay, even when you're an adult. There are lots of people who do the things you do- I like cuddly toys myself, and I work with a lady who has a whole room full of Lego models that she's made.
I actually think that it's a really good thing that you talk about your interests so openly here- it shows us all that even though people have made you feel bad about who you are, you can still be yourself.
As for eating with your hands, that's very common too- in some cultures it's the usual way of eating.
You're not doing anything wrong by being who you are. In a way, it's more grown up and mature to say 'I like to play and have fun' than it is to pretend we all have to put our toys away forever in order to be 'proper adults'.
Thank you