Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm too exhaused to even type this. I have started a new job and its a completely different career from what I'm used to. Its librarian work which you would think would suit me and sometimes it does but im used to being a teacher and the change to a new career, particularly after how badly I was discriminated against in my last job and the effect that had on me, has absolutley floored me.Since starting this job I have had so much fear every morning and evening and at the end of lunch breaks about going back. The wierd things are there are also times when i feel very calm there and enjoy the job.
Its difficult to describe the effect its having on me. the only time in my life I went through something similar was the change when I left retail to start teaching. Its very very hard to put into words what is going through my head but it is extremely painful
Any advice would be needed. I know it might pass when I get used to the job but I dont think I can stand this pain and suffering in the meantime
new unfamiliar places and situations can cause anxiety, alongside new people and social interactions your not familiar with causing social anxiety. its likely just anxiety.lucky its a library, it should be quiet and have less people bothering you and less demand or expectation. although i guess the quietness and probably lack of things to do will have you on edge and always thinking you may get told off for not having anything to do lol