Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm too exhaused to even type this. I have started a new job and its a completely different career from what I'm used to. Its librarian work which you would think would suit me and sometimes it does but im used to being a teacher and the change to a new career, particularly after how badly I was discriminated against in my last job and the effect that had on me, has absolutley floored me.Since starting this job I have had so much fear every morning and evening and at the end of lunch breaks about going back. The wierd things are there are also times when i feel very calm there and enjoy the job.
Its difficult to describe the effect its having on me. the only time in my life I went through something similar was the change when I left retail to start teaching. Its very very hard to put into words what is going through my head but it is extremely painful
Any advice would be needed. I know it might pass when I get used to the job but I dont think I can stand this pain and suffering in the meantime
Billy87 said: I have had so much fear every morning and evening and at the end of lunch breaks about going back.
Do you think you may have an imposter syndrome? It is quite common when changing career that you subliminaly feel you are a fraud, that you shouldn't be doing the job because you don't know it well enough etc.
Just a thought.
The main thing to getting through this is to focus on the positives and try to dismiss the unfounded fears you have - much easier said than done of course, but each day you continue to do the job, learn more and establish yourself is another achievement to wave in the face of the irrational fears.