Published on 12, July, 2020
I put this down to my low confidence/self-esteem. I feel guilty about this, but I would be under the belief that my own friends wouldn't fully appreciate me until I had something incredible to impress them with.
I realise now that they did like me for who I was and I didn't appreciate it at the time. Even the most chronic people pleaser wouldn't travel 120 miles to see someone if they didn't want to (I hope not anyway).
I guess I just wanted someone to look me in the eyes (well, if they were autistic too, maybe not!) and tell me that I am enough.
HMO said:I guess I just wanted someone to look me in the eyes (well, if they were autistic too, maybe not!) and tell me that I am enough.
Self esteem comes from within - what you were looking for is validation.
This book may be useful for you:
An Aspie's Guide to Overcoming Poor Self-Esteem - Attwood, Tony, Evans, Craig R., Lesko, Anita (2015)
eISBN 9781784501204
Yeah. One of the things I've been exploring in therapy over the last few months is the fact I needed validation so much, and I was too ashamed of admitting that it was a problem.