Published on 12, July, 2020
Im autistic level 2 and DLD and mild intellectual disability.
When I get overwhelmed I use different things to regulate. Sitting on the floor rolling a ball against the wall or sitting in the sofa and having a finger in my mouth or using a chewie thing.
I'm not allowed to speak about my disabilities it's family rules. I lived at home until I was 28 years old then in nursing home for 4,5 years. Then alone. But still allowed talk about my problems for my parents. I'm forbidden to play with toys but I so want to. I was not allowed using pacifier after age 12 year old.
I love to play with Lego. I want to go swinging and playing in sand but it's forbidden as adult to do . I love splashing in water with my hands.
I'm bodily function disabled. I can or control my bladder never could in my life.
Parents say I'm stupid and wrong and not good. I must feel ashamed for all my problems. I trou leave eating correct it's hard getting food in my mouth but manage that but usually cry because my sweater gets dirty. Am I wrong or strange?
I don't think you're strange and certainly not stupid and wrong. It's sad that you can't speak to your family about your disabilities. If you live alone, why can't you play with toys?
risk family comes and after 28 years of forced to learn things at home its hard to abandon those thoughts. I love to play with toys in stores and look at them. In my dream I would alot have at home toys play with.
It is hard to break away from what our family teach us.
Could you not put the toys away if your family come?
yes can I but more reson as well. I play those toys I have and love it but cannot afford new one that I want. Even new small soft balls to roll against the wall are expensive to me. My social pay helps me survive day and bills pay then I have £50 to live each month.I saved 1,5 year to buy my lego model Giza pyramid