Published on 12, July, 2020
I say "does anyone else" like it's a unique experience, particularly for the Autistics among us with terrible rumination issues, but I've noticed it is getting worse for me.
I can't respond to things in the moment so I end up really frustrated and angry immediately after.
I think a lot about future conversations. I see a therapist and I spend hours on end thinking about what I'll say, how I'll say it and even with a list of notes to accompany me, I'll still come away afterwards thinking about what I wish I said.
Is it because I'm not "in the moment" enough?
Yes I've spent a lot of my time replaying conversations and planning future conversations but it doesn't help me much, just ends up causing me unwanted anxiety to do with socialising. It is a confidence thing, sometimes I'm better at interacting but lately it's been terrible for me again and I avoid people because of it.
I'm in that same position. It'd be great to not have that anxiety and be in a state of panic even when it comes to casual conversations.