Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, I have been thinking a lot about my diagnosis which was given in 2022 as ASC / ADHD and c-PTSD. I was fascinated to read that psychologists used to believe Autism was caused by traumatic events because there are so many similar features eg the need for control, routines,sensory issues.
Apparently this is no longer the general consensus, and is now considered to be a neurological development issue - but i can also see why clinicians came to this conclusion previously.
The OT that i spent time with ( she is a very nice lady) told me that with Autism, it is present in childhood, i did have some traumatic childhood experiences but i have always been hyper-sensitive, anyway what i do know is that depression and anxiety are common in autism, and apparently caused by the fact autistic people are acutely aware that they are different and do not ' fit in ' i certainly agree with that.
I am also told that a person with Autism and ADHD looks different to a person with Autism because ADHD element can give the impression the person is more 'sociable' or ' approachable' having said that, i am told that Autistic people observe others and watch their behaviours and mimic them in order to try to fit in somehow. I think this is true for myself, although in the last 10 years i have given up ' trying to fit in '
One last point on trauma ; i have recently undertaken EMDR therapy which really seems to have improved the symptoms ( less flashbacks)
What are your thoughts?
I was literally told at my autism assessment on Tuesday that they cannot tell if I am autistic or if it's all my childhood trauma. I'm hoping to get my sibling to fill out a form within the next week so I can get it in and get a clear diagnosis but it seems that I'm more likely to just get "maybe"
It's frustrating but they're doing the right thing but as a friend said for all intents and purposes I am autistic and me and my definitely diagnosed autistic and definitely not traumatised Kiddo are so alike it's kind of hard to believe that they are and yet I am not?
idk I feel I know where the line between my trauma and autism is but I dont' think I can articulate that.
It is frustrating because i have the same kind of issue, so i sympathise. But as Queer Autistic Grunge says there aren't many Autistic people that don't have some kind of trauma. However, what i can say is after years of trying different types of therapy, meditation groups etc. EMDR therapy definitely works, the good thing about this type of therapy is that you do not need to go into details about the traumatic event. Also i am thinking about Equine therapy which is available through CASA. I take extra magensium too which helps with the Anxiety although sadly i have been stuck on SSRIs for over 25 years and i can no longer remember what it was like before.