Published on 12, July, 2020
I've come to the conclusion that, no matter how hard I try to make something of myself in this world or no matter how hard I try to lead a simple and normal life, I will always fail. The system is designed against us and to keep us from any sense of belonging in this world, so I just don't care anymore.
I keep applying for jobs and attending interviews, but I keep failing them. I keep being told about "opportunities" for career blah blah blah etc, but I honest think it is all a lie to keep us running around in circles and to drive us insane. I'll never be able to get a job I'll be happy with because the system is designed to keep me from having any level of satisfaction in my life.
There is no chance for the autistic, we are un desirables, and because I am both autistic and gay I will be more of an undesirable than most people. I just don't think there is any point in trying to do anything anymore. Applying for work, seeking opportunities, attempting to find any sort of place in this world, there is just no point anymore.
I give up.
I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I'm also both gay and autistic and it's a struggle being part of two marginalised communities. Intersectionality is a challenge sometimes when you're dealing with it!
Work is hard, but here are some things I found which might be useful for you to look into:https://www.scope.org.uk/employment-services/support-to-work/?gad=1&gclid=Cj0KCQjw4s-kBhDqARIsAN-ipH3ShCX-uLK_OZ0VwpNfFcQ16a8Kvwb0FuSfMdmZdeMFPfIIXBjM2zUaAqXGEALw_wcB
https://www.employmentautism.org.uk/
https://www.ambitiousaboutautism.org.uk/what-we-do/employment/work-experience-opportunities-alerts-signup
https://www.gov.uk/government/publications/disability-confident-employers-that-have-signed-up
All the best, and don't give up - the right thing will come along for you in the end, and we're here to listen and help!