Published on 12, July, 2020
I've come to the conclusion that, no matter how hard I try to make something of myself in this world or no matter how hard I try to lead a simple and normal life, I will always fail. The system is designed against us and to keep us from any sense of belonging in this world, so I just don't care anymore.
I keep applying for jobs and attending interviews, but I keep failing them. I keep being told about "opportunities" for career blah blah blah etc, but I honest think it is all a lie to keep us running around in circles and to drive us insane. I'll never be able to get a job I'll be happy with because the system is designed to keep me from having any level of satisfaction in my life.
There is no chance for the autistic, we are un desirables, and because I am both autistic and gay I will be more of an undesirable than most people. I just don't think there is any point in trying to do anything anymore. Applying for work, seeking opportunities, attempting to find any sort of place in this world, there is just no point anymore.
I give up.
I hear the word "opportunity" so much that it has lost all meaning. People keep telling me that I could do this or do that, but none ever tell me how or even point me in the right direction. I'm beginning to think that people are just repeating the same nonsense others have told them without actually knowing what they are really saying.
There is no path for me. The only certain solution is death. I just hate myself for not being able to go through with it.
Akendolfr said:People keep telling me that I could do this or do that, but none ever tell me how or even point me in the right direction.
Challange accepted!
If you want to share some specifics for what you are looking for in terms of work then I'm up for helping explain to you how to get yourself ready to be able to do these.
I've been a mentor for plenty of people starting (mostly in the IT field) who have autistic issues.
Be aware that this, like anything in life, is a challenge that requires you to put in effort and time, but I'm certain you will be able to do it if you find the positivity.
If you don't want to share on the forum then add me as a friend and I can help you via messaging. Just hover the cursor over my name and you will get a pop up with the option to Request Friendship.
As for taking the easy way out - you get to miss out on all the good stuff that comes later on. I don't recommend even considering it as an option.