Published on 12, July, 2020
I've come to the conclusion that, no matter how hard I try to make something of myself in this world or no matter how hard I try to lead a simple and normal life, I will always fail. The system is designed against us and to keep us from any sense of belonging in this world, so I just don't care anymore.
I keep applying for jobs and attending interviews, but I keep failing them. I keep being told about "opportunities" for career blah blah blah etc, but I honest think it is all a lie to keep us running around in circles and to drive us insane. I'll never be able to get a job I'll be happy with because the system is designed to keep me from having any level of satisfaction in my life.
There is no chance for the autistic, we are un desirables, and because I am both autistic and gay I will be more of an undesirable than most people. I just don't think there is any point in trying to do anything anymore. Applying for work, seeking opportunities, attempting to find any sort of place in this world, there is just no point anymore.
I give up.
Thank you for your replies. I'm feeling better now. I was set off this morning because I failed a job interview, but I'm over it now.
Glad you're doing better. Sorry to hear about your interview, but remember that's their loss and there will be others which will hopefully next time be successful :)
Oh Thank goodness you had me really worried. I dropped you a friend request in case you wanted someone to DM and talk more, but ofc you don't have to accept it if you don't feel like it.