Published on 12, July, 2020
I've come to the conclusion that, no matter how hard I try to make something of myself in this world or no matter how hard I try to lead a simple and normal life, I will always fail. The system is designed against us and to keep us from any sense of belonging in this world, so I just don't care anymore.
I keep applying for jobs and attending interviews, but I keep failing them. I keep being told about "opportunities" for career blah blah blah etc, but I honest think it is all a lie to keep us running around in circles and to drive us insane. I'll never be able to get a job I'll be happy with because the system is designed to keep me from having any level of satisfaction in my life.
There is no chance for the autistic, we are un desirables, and because I am both autistic and gay I will be more of an undesirable than most people. I just don't think there is any point in trying to do anything anymore. Applying for work, seeking opportunities, attempting to find any sort of place in this world, there is just no point anymore.
I give up.
I'm sure i read somewhere the amount of autistic adults with autism is about 70%....... That's terrible isn't it ?
I'm retired now, out of the rat race. When i was younger i worked in offices and didn't fit in. I never realised at the time i was autistic but looking back think no wonder they chose me to make redundant, I'd often say the wrong thing.
I spent most of my working life driving a Cab, so you're self employed and don't need to fit in. But find anything that's self employed maybe the way out.