Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello fellow autistic people!
I found this brilliant, accurate and thought provoking description of alexithymia on social media (Instagram)!
https://www.instagram.com/p/CovdEQysj00/?igshid=MWQ1ZGUxMzBkMA==
If you can’t access Instagram, here is the description:
’I have a theory about this term. What if it’s not that I don’t know what I’m feeling, it’s that I don’t know how to tell you. What if I feel it in such an extreme, primal and indescribable way that spoken language fails to encompass it? And instead of allowing to feel deeply you have pathologised my unique emotional experience?’
I completely relate to this, I feel emotions very intensely and it’s one of the things I love about being autistic! I particularly like how the description states that spoken language is insufficient to describe the depth of emotion we feel. This is why stimming is our natural means of communication and so cool.
Do you relate this description of alexithymia? What do you think about your autistic experience of emotions?
I have pretty much zero emotions, I only think in practical terms. When my parents died in the last few years my real issues were with all the stuf I had to do and how that destroyed me with anxiety. My parents were old and it was their time, it was the fact I had to organise everything and it took up masses of my time that stressed me out. II was acutally relieved when my mum passed as she was not in a good place and it was taking of most of my weekends. I am good to have around in a crisis as I just look at the practical stuff.