Published on 12, July, 2020
Along with being autistic, I also struggle with Crohn's colitis.
It's dawned on me lately that I often get sick when pressure is on me for something. Beit a job expectation, famil or personal expectation, to succeed, or to meet a deadline or arrive at an event.
Do I need to do any of this stuff? I mean really?
Do you fee much happier when there isn't expected of you?
When my diary is clear, which is very rare, I feel free, and much more calm. Is the modern world making us sick purely by expecting us to perform in it?
Same here. However, the amount of pressure I feel has persisted no matter the size of expectation or event. It's become a real psychological battle for perceptibly small hurdles
Moreso the expectations of others.
I feel that I need time, to myself, after a huge effort; like heading out yesterday.