Published on 12, July, 2020
It scares me.
Terrifies me, TBH.
I don't mind my appearance changing all that much but getting older and not being able to do as much bothers me. So does the increased risk of illness and death.
The fact that I can't really care and look after myself now also bothers me because it will be even worse when my parents are gone. What will become of me when that happens?
Institution, I guess.
I've been in a (hospital) for mental problems before. I was 13 at the time, got home again just before my 18th birthday and promised myself I wouldn't let that happen to me again.
But no matter how hard I try I'm overwhelmed by anxiety and stress. I can't cope with myself, with the hassle life has... Right now my parents support me but they are getting older and so am I...
It's a worry.
Can anybody relate?
I don't mind my appearance changing all that much but getting older and not being able to do as much bothers me
You know even at my age having been on Facebook for nearly two decades now probably, my main profile picture is still me at around 16-17 years old. I still feel that represents who I am better than what I see in the mirror. And given the choice I’d certainly wind the clock back a couple of decades or more.
you see these TV shows where some Instagram model has radical cosmetic surgery to make them look over 10 years younger. If I could look like I did when I was 18 again I certainly would.