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I'm back into the diaspora

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I fool myself into believing I am a functional person---but I am not.   All tasks involving my engagement with people seems to end in failure.  Despite  being married, that too has been an ongoing oppositional battle.  We tolerate each other.  I just had my 78th birthday and I am tired of leading this negative existance.  Hassle just seems to find me.  I'm not even sure my input now will be registered owing to a past NAS ID mixup I tried to sort out, but it too failed.  So now I'm  operating under a different ID which will be strange to any friends or followers I previously had engaged with.  

I am really at a low point.  Spilling out my guts to an anonymous crowd seems pointless to me.  I don't really know why I started this thread.  I initially thought I had found a home here, but that also went sour.  I'm not looking for sympathy.  I am clutching at straws trying to find my purpose while also trying to keep peace with my tortured soul.

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  • ( I think I know who you are / what your prev account was ) For what it's worth I never thought or felt to hold our disagreements against you personally (if you are who I think you are) so if it was some beef with me way back when don't feel like you need to hang onto that emotionally because you really don't. I hope you'll stay and continue to be a member here, AFAIC this forum is for the autistic community and you are part of it. Sorry you're at a low point, hopefully things will improve for you. Have you thought of seeking a couples counselor or something similar by the way? I hear that can be really good for when personal relationships hit frequent snags.

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  • ( I think I know who you are / what your prev account was ) For what it's worth I never thought or felt to hold our disagreements against you personally (if you are who I think you are) so if it was some beef with me way back when don't feel like you need to hang onto that emotionally because you really don't. I hope you'll stay and continue to be a member here, AFAIC this forum is for the autistic community and you are part of it. Sorry you're at a low point, hopefully things will improve for you. Have you thought of seeking a couples counselor or something similar by the way? I hear that can be really good for when personal relationships hit frequent snags.

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