Stopping wanting to conform

Billy,

When I started to appreciate and understand just how duplicitous and "unfair" the systems and protocols of my societal experience were, I started to withdraw somewhat.

When I started to speak up and explain what I had come to understand and how horrific I thought it was.....but was greeted with a response of "no one cares"....THEN my conformist, "fit-in like a good citizen" aspiration evaporated.  I reached a point that could be considered quite childish, ie "well if you don't care about what I consider important, then why should I care what you think of me."

I suppose the "moment" at which this happened was circa 2010.

I can still mask like a sociopathic pro when I want to....but mostly (these days) I'm leaning more into a "I'm very different - deal with it, or leave me alone" attitude.

I note that most good/reasonable/"my type of people" are more than happy to accept my difference....I'm not the demanding type!  People who seem unreasonable, nasty or mean - I just leave them alone.

Number.

Interesting point. I think most people dont let themselves care about how messed up society is and what a con it all is. I think the reason for that is because if they allowed themselves to see through it then they would not be able to conform to it any longer and they want to conform. Sometimes it is easier not to see things I guess but once you have seen through them you cant unsee them 

Interesting point. I think most people dont let themselves care about how messed up society is and what a con it all is. I think the reason for that is because if they allowed themselves to see through it then they would not be able to conform to it any longer and they want to conform. Sometimes it is easier not to see things I guess but once you have seen through them you cant unsee them