What was your life like before you knew you were autistic?

There have been quite a few comments recently since the recent documentaries about the experiences of those of us who are older. This made me wonder how my life would have been like had I known why some things were difficult. I spent a lot of my life wishing I could relate to others more easily, like others I came in contact with.  I guess since knowing I have wished less to be like others and tried to accept how I am. 

I had some interesting experiences in my younger days, including a few trips to interesting places abroad. I am glad I have those memories. However today I find a lot of ordinary things challenging and am happy to be at home a lot of the time. I have always found home to be my safe place, but occasionally managed to go beyond my comfort zone.

How have others found the change since knowing they were autistic?

Parents
  • good question , I was always " the scream" by edvard munch in my head , confused ,riddled with self loathing , confusion, anxiety. I didn't understand why people hated me so much ,i would try so hard but always they shunned me, took any reason to ridicule me ,belittle me .. I still don't understand why but i have a reason now . So i am kinder to myself ,still full of rage but at the world and not myself  .

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  • good question , I was always " the scream" by edvard munch in my head , confused ,riddled with self loathing , confusion, anxiety. I didn't understand why people hated me so much ,i would try so hard but always they shunned me, took any reason to ridicule me ,belittle me .. I still don't understand why but i have a reason now . So i am kinder to myself ,still full of rage but at the world and not myself  .

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