Endings

I recently returned to the city I grew up in and did a bit if a tourist run round it. It was fun. But I was aware of all the emotions and negative memories that were being stirred up there from childhood before I knew about ASC.

I had such tough times there and have struggled to put those struggles behind me.

Since returning to my current home I've been having nightmares, intense body spasms, and symptoms of depression again.

So on reflection I think it's the ending of old friendships that linger for me. Looking back I realise the ones I struggled with stuck with me, trapped in my core that seem to cause me pain and leave me wondering what happened.

Do you find that ending friendships is often weird, because there is no closure, they just drift away and you're left wondering why you no longer stay in touch?

Seems to be a common thing for me. Either that or I cut ties with people because I no longer trust they have good intentions.

Is this just how it goes, or is this a ND only experience I wonder?

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  • I had a best friend (I thought of her as a sister) of 16 years betray me and backstab me after lending her a lot of money to help her pay her rent. I don't understand why she did it and it's made me question our entire friendship.

    But I don't think it's a ND thing per-say - I think lives get busy and people just kinda forget about friendships. I've not seen a friend in over 8 years because of distance and life - we like and comment on socials but reconnected the other day and I'm seeing her next week because I'm going to be in the area. 

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  • I had a best friend (I thought of her as a sister) of 16 years betray me and backstab me after lending her a lot of money to help her pay her rent. I don't understand why she did it and it's made me question our entire friendship.

    But I don't think it's a ND thing per-say - I think lives get busy and people just kinda forget about friendships. I've not seen a friend in over 8 years because of distance and life - we like and comment on socials but reconnected the other day and I'm seeing her next week because I'm going to be in the area. 

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