Can't work

I'm disappointed in myself for being so poorly equipped and incapable of dealing with life. 

I had a job interview, I just got through it, and they agreed to give me a trial morning. The trial went horrible. My anxiety caused attacks, I got overwhelmed and had several meltdowns and a seizure. I ended up going home early, a sad wreck.. they have been in touch and won't be giving me the position because it's not a role I'm suited to.

I'm never going to work. I don't see me being able to overcome the hurdles in my life because it's a constant battle against me. And I can't fight myself.

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  • Hey Texan, so sorry to hear about your experiences today. I have been through this so many times, sometimes I have curled up on the floor on the morning of a job interview and not been able to go. Other times I have got on the trian to go to a job and just ended up locking myself in the train station bathroom and then getting on a train somewhere else instead cos I couldnt face it and many other things that would take too long to say on here.

    Please dont blame yourself. You are not poorly equipped and incapable of dealing with life at all. You are wonderfully equipped and able, its just that you are equpped for a neurodiverse world while sadly we are living in an NT world. I read a wonderful discription once that it is like being a person with a fork in a world of soup. Its not your fault, none of it is.

    Just take some time to rest and be kind to yourself, spend time in things that comfort you and things you are interested in and then when you are ready you might find there is a line of work that suits you more and if there isnt then that is ok too

  • like being a person with a fork in a world of soup

    I’ve never heard that expression before but I love it!

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