Mute

Been assessing where my selective mutism begins and ends. I've come to the conclusion that it's a self defense mechanism that protects either my point of view or my energy levels, and comes most often when I haven't had any space to myself for some time. So I shutdown and prioritise my internal thought processes over my external communications.

Was wondering where yours appears?

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  • If I'm in a situation with having to explain myself to someone I'm unfamiliar with I stumble and bumble with my words unable to maintain clear objective sentences to compliment my thoughts. I can recognize the immediate face drop of the listener. At that point I become mute often creating an awkward silence forcing the listener to jump in. I avoid situations like that which is why I don't attend party invitations or get involved with a crowd of strangers. When I have done so in the past I was labeled as a snob because I found it so difficult to make small talk.  I'm ok explaining factual or technical things I know and can focus on, but that is boring to many. The path of least resistance for me is to be anti-social avoiding such situations.  

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  • If I'm in a situation with having to explain myself to someone I'm unfamiliar with I stumble and bumble with my words unable to maintain clear objective sentences to compliment my thoughts. I can recognize the immediate face drop of the listener. At that point I become mute often creating an awkward silence forcing the listener to jump in. I avoid situations like that which is why I don't attend party invitations or get involved with a crowd of strangers. When I have done so in the past I was labeled as a snob because I found it so difficult to make small talk.  I'm ok explaining factual or technical things I know and can focus on, but that is boring to many. The path of least resistance for me is to be anti-social avoiding such situations.  

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