Lost please help

After years of mental health issues I've recently come to realise I'm probably autistic. Reading a few books it's like coming face to face with my life story and the tests I've done say the same thing.

I'm not doing too well at the moment and I've got nobody to turn to. Could really do with some advice please?

How do I know if this is me being crazy or I'm actually on the spectrum? I know that formal diagnosis would be really hard to get but I'm worried I'm not doing the right things to manage myself. What did anyone else do?

I'm really struggling right now - keep getting overwhelmed (can't speak or think), emotions all over the place, poor sleep, more sensitive to sound and light, can only manage the basics day to day, avoiding people, suicidal. It doesn't feel like I'm depressed though. I try to keep my exercise and coping stuff going but I'm not getting better. Any tips?

I've read about burnout and how masking makes it more likely, but although I'm conscious I'm a pretend version of me in public, I've been doing it so long I wouldn't have a clue what the real me was. I'm hoping it's not the one that sits at home alone crying. Where do I even start?

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  • Note that you very much aren't alone. I have been exactly where you are a few times before diagnosis. So welcome, keep reaching out, ask us all what things pop up that you may be wondering 'is this typical or does this make me autistic', it really helps over time.

    Calm yourself by deep slow breathing and look up, the sun will still rise each morning and you should definitely be there to see it

    As bleak as things feel now please trust that this too shall pass. Your brain is opening new pathways in finding itself, this is an uncomfortable feeling and brings about intense emotions, so don't expect it to be any easier for you. But you can do it, if we all can then so can you. Breathe

    ...and keep reaching out Thumbsup

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  • Note that you very much aren't alone. I have been exactly where you are a few times before diagnosis. So welcome, keep reaching out, ask us all what things pop up that you may be wondering 'is this typical or does this make me autistic', it really helps over time.

    Calm yourself by deep slow breathing and look up, the sun will still rise each morning and you should definitely be there to see it

    As bleak as things feel now please trust that this too shall pass. Your brain is opening new pathways in finding itself, this is an uncomfortable feeling and brings about intense emotions, so don't expect it to be any easier for you. But you can do it, if we all can then so can you. Breathe

    ...and keep reaching out Thumbsup

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