Lost please help

After years of mental health issues I've recently come to realise I'm probably autistic. Reading a few books it's like coming face to face with my life story and the tests I've done say the same thing.

I'm not doing too well at the moment and I've got nobody to turn to. Could really do with some advice please?

How do I know if this is me being crazy or I'm actually on the spectrum? I know that formal diagnosis would be really hard to get but I'm worried I'm not doing the right things to manage myself. What did anyone else do?

I'm really struggling right now - keep getting overwhelmed (can't speak or think), emotions all over the place, poor sleep, more sensitive to sound and light, can only manage the basics day to day, avoiding people, suicidal. It doesn't feel like I'm depressed though. I try to keep my exercise and coping stuff going but I'm not getting better. Any tips?

I've read about burnout and how masking makes it more likely, but although I'm conscious I'm a pretend version of me in public, I've been doing it so long I wouldn't have a clue what the real me was. I'm hoping it's not the one that sits at home alone crying. Where do I even start?

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  • I I were in your situation I'd want to know as soon as possible. 

    I was (at age  59) and so I did by getting the aspergertestsite test done.

    Once I had a string indication, I booked the NHS messabout, and chivvied them along for a couple of months until they did my assessment "quickly" to shut me up. I was 59 I needed to know..

    There's no help from the NHS anyway, so it's a bit of a waste of time TBF, but once you know, you can start helping yourself a bit.

    For example, NOONE gets away with criticising me or censuring me for the stuff I cannot help any more

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  • I I were in your situation I'd want to know as soon as possible. 

    I was (at age  59) and so I did by getting the aspergertestsite test done.

    Once I had a string indication, I booked the NHS messabout, and chivvied them along for a couple of months until they did my assessment "quickly" to shut me up. I was 59 I needed to know..

    There's no help from the NHS anyway, so it's a bit of a waste of time TBF, but once you know, you can start helping yourself a bit.

    For example, NOONE gets away with criticising me or censuring me for the stuff I cannot help any more

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