Melt downs

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How do you deal with the guilt, depression, even suicidal thoughts post melt down. Can't stop thinking my partner and baby don't deserve a mother who melt downs like this. Especially on big occasions . (Today I melted down in the night after his 1st birthday, so many peoples, big change of routine and some nastiness from the mother in law) 

But I get this guilt like I don't want tocwake up and go back to 'normal' after this massive emotional experience for me. Its so painful 

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  • Hello 70431.  I am Number.

    You are right.  It can be extremely painful.  It can be hard to know how we can carry on.  But we do.  We must.  We want to, but we just struggle to understand how.  I still don't know how we do it - but we do.  You will.  You know this.  It is actually OK.  Congratulations on achieving a successful 12 months of parenting - they get a cake, but you deserve a medal.  Stay calm.  Allow yourself permission to feel how you do.  The world keeps spinning and so do you.

    Stick around these pages - strength can be drawn from here.

    Welcome.

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  • Hello 70431.  I am Number.

    You are right.  It can be extremely painful.  It can be hard to know how we can carry on.  But we do.  We must.  We want to, but we just struggle to understand how.  I still don't know how we do it - but we do.  You will.  You know this.  It is actually OK.  Congratulations on achieving a successful 12 months of parenting - they get a cake, but you deserve a medal.  Stay calm.  Allow yourself permission to feel how you do.  The world keeps spinning and so do you.

    Stick around these pages - strength can be drawn from here.

    Welcome.

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