Brain not allowing you to be happy

Looks like your brain is trying to protect you in some way, rather than work against you. 

Maybe it feels that if you were happy, but then got disappointed that it would mean two extremes. Happy to upset, and your brain is wanting you to avoid a mega meltdown. 

It sounds like you have build this up slowly over time as a defence mechanism. 

Perhaps you are finding that instead of being too upset or too happy at things that overall you might be trying to make yourself content , safe and ready for anything that may crop up.  

So ask yourself, are you okay about that? and are you accepting of what your brain is doing? if so then there is no need to worry. Maybe your brain is just wanting a nice balance instead of extremes. It is a coping mechanism too perhaps? 

Wow that is really profound, has certainly given me a lot to think about. Its possible you could be right 

Wow that is really profound, has certainly given me a lot to think about. Its possible you could be right