Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello! I'm new here, so a bit nervous to post. I'm 29 years old in Feb and got my official diagnosis of autism after a long wait in October of 2022.
Unfortunately I had to take some time from work due to autistic + type 1 diabetes burnout, as I work in a busy call centre and the constant customer service + office environment masking made me very unwell. I have had approximately 2 and a half weeks off now, and my sick note runs out today, so I am back in tomorrow. Although the time off to regulate myself and be authentic to my actual needs has been nice and much needed, I am now left with a constant overwhelming anxiety about having to go back to work.
I usually have a very strong work ethic, but for some reason I am absolutely dreading having to go back in to where the demand is high for masking again, to the point I can feel myself getting overwhelmed before I've even gone back in. I don't really know what to do or who to confide in as I keep getting told that it's normal to feel nervous about going back after time off. I'm scared that I'll push myself to go in and then breakdown and start uncontrollably crying again like I did before I took some sick leave. I know that there's nothing that can be done for me and all actions are my own, but perhaps I'm hoping for some advice or suggestions, or maybe even just a safe space to vent. I also acknowledge that not everyone is able to work so I'm sorry if this is a sensitive topic for anyone personally. Thank you.
I find that meditating helps, maybe 5 to 10 minutes daily if you can manage it and are able to allow yourself to have a bit of time before going into work. I would also inform them if you haven’t already of your diagnosis and ask that they take this into account. They should be able to cater to your needs. It is important to put yourself first as far as work goes because you’re no good to anyone if you’re burnt out. I wish you very very good luck and remember being autistic is something to be proud of, you’re strong. If you’re struggling to cope I would suggest ringing the Samaritans on the following number. 116123. Or Maybe get in touch with your GP and ask them for some advice with regarding the anxiety.
maybe get in touch with your GP and ask them for some advice with regarding the anxiety.