Identity crisis

Hi all, this is my first post but I've been struggling recently.

I've been diagnosed with autism for around 6 months, at age 30, after several years living as self-diagnosed. One of the biggest issues I've had since is a feeling that I have no idea what my identity is or who I am any more. 

I know a lot of this is tied to masking and I've been thinking a lot about how I've changed myself and my interests to manage in certain situations and to make an identity for myself and this has gone back to when I was a teen.

I was just wondering if/how anyone else has managed this, and got through it? It causes me a lot of stress, sadness, and inability to trust myself as I'm not sure I know who I am anymore.

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  • I know a lot of this is tied to masking

    I really sympathise. In my case, I've never really known where the masking begins and ends...or even if I am all-mask or none. I'm just lucky that this fact doesn't bother me too much, simply because I'm so used to the blurring of selves/personae.

    Hopefully some of the great and clever people here will be able to help you more properly. Slight smile

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  • I know a lot of this is tied to masking

    I really sympathise. In my case, I've never really known where the masking begins and ends...or even if I am all-mask or none. I'm just lucky that this fact doesn't bother me too much, simply because I'm so used to the blurring of selves/personae.

    Hopefully some of the great and clever people here will be able to help you more properly. Slight smile

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