Published on 12, July, 2020
I was working in English, teaching writing to students and I had been doing this for a long time but had to cut down to part time because of autistic burnout and physical stress. I went to work before Xmas but left after an hour I couldn't cope and I've not been back since. I can't do work anymore it's like I get pulled under fierce waves in the dark and I can't breathe or see. My husband is supportive and has said to stay at home and go back when I'm ready but I don't want to quit in case I'm never ready to return to work. But I feel selfish for being like this because my husband has to deal with me.
I've had a couple of jobs working in shops and at a hospital but the experience haven't been good. I was hoping my teaching would be a good one and last but it looks like I've failed again. I have no idea how people keep their jobs without burning out. I cannot get the hang of it.
I work part-time, two days a week, and am exhausted a lot of the time. I do also volunteer one morning a week, but I don't find that so draining. I want to set up some work from home proofreading and editing, but I'm not sure if that's going to work. I'm really still supported by my parents, which embarrasses me, but there's not a lot I can do about it right now.