Contradictions within Autism

As Melanie Sykes said, she was a "walking contradiction" and I feel the same. Here are my examples. I'd love to know if you are the same or have any more to add!

1. Feel less need to follow social conventions but then am a heavy people pleaser.
2. Feel I have my own sense of identity but get easily swept along by others.
3. Not sure how I feel a lot of the time but feel very strongly when I do know. Feel strongly other people's emotions or completely miss them.
4. Feel like I can't read people in the moment but then pick up on micro expressions or feelings other people don't seem to notice.
5. Love being on my own but have a strong need for people interaction which is often a bit difficult and tiring.
6. Naturally introverted but love the energy when with the right people.
7. Get mixed up with left or right but have a good sense of direction.
8. A strong need to be on time but always running late.
9, Approachable as an ear for problems but seldom have my own listened to.
10. Communicate clearly in my job but can't explain problems to health professionals very well.
11. Am a natural organiser but actually not very organised.
12. A strong need for a tidy house but it's always a mess (to me).
13. An effort to have less stuff but feel its always cluttered.
14. A desire for a minimalist house but think they're boring.
15. Often really want to get going a lot of the time but don't know how..
16. Don't like loud noises but love loud music.
17. Can get up early of my own accord but not when my alarm goes off.
18. Hyper focus or inertia.
19. Like to be spontaneuous but don't like a change to a plan and need to know ahead what's happening.
20. Find sameness boring but don't like change.
21. Need routine to function but have difficulty forming them unless it's imposed.

22. Good long term memory but poor short term memory. 
23. Can see both sides of the discussion so have conflicting opinions.

Parents Reply
  • I'm the same as your last paragraph. I wouldn't holiday in the same place year after year. I don't think the direction or left right thing is much to do with autism but I could be wrong. I know other people who are not autistic who get mixed up too.

    How do you get on with sat nav? My car doesn't have it but my partners does. It's too much information both visual, autiory and directional all at once. And that's when I'm being a passenger and not even driving. It's confusing when I'm told "next left" but it means "this left coming up". Or it givrs information in yards which i cannot judge. Or that its so accurate I miss the turning cos I'm waiting for it but it's exactly up to speed with where are.  

    What would be interesting at this point is to get a "neurotypical" perspective on the list. I would like to know how experiences compare.  I think sometimes we can be guilty of attributing everything to autism when it might not always be the case. Who knows.

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