Signs of burnout and needing support

Does anyone notice signs of an austistic burnout before it happens? I had a burnout in the summer and I have recovered somewhat but recently I can feel signs mentally of what happened in the summer happening again. 

I am supposed to start a demanding new job Tuesday and I feel if I do it will almost definitely cause the burnout I can feel coming on. I have a dental operation that I am really scared of to organise this week as well

Do you ever get that feeling when you try and do something and its like you can almost physcially feel this wall in front of you stopping you and your pushing against it but you know you cant get through? Dont know if I explained that very well

Sometimes I feel hopeful that I can do it all and other times I feel close to breaking point and I just want to curl up into a ball and hide

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  • Thank you for all your kind words everyone. You have all been such a comfort to me this week, reading these messages has really helped. 

    Its been a lot this week, Im not gonna lie. I have had so much to learn at work as I have never been a full teacher before with marking and planning meetings etc and I have had bad migranes just from the strain of taking it all in. Most days I have not been able to get out of bed till 5 mins before I have to go to work just from feeling so overwhelmed at the thought of dealing with people all day and trying to understand everything. I have also developed a twitch in my left eye which I havnt had for a while

    I have my dental operation tonight so very scared about that. I have only been able to get one of the two bad teeth done but its by far the worst one so hoping and praying the other one doesnt give me too much trouble. 

    I have also found out yesterday that Im getting paid way less than I should be for this job and my agency have been screwing me and lying to me so thats not good

    At the moment I feel like I am a bit more stable and calm than usual with it all but I dont know how long that will last. There is the fear of a breakdown around the corner potentially.

    Thanks for all the support everyone it means a lot 

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  • Thank you for all your kind words everyone. You have all been such a comfort to me this week, reading these messages has really helped. 

    Its been a lot this week, Im not gonna lie. I have had so much to learn at work as I have never been a full teacher before with marking and planning meetings etc and I have had bad migranes just from the strain of taking it all in. Most days I have not been able to get out of bed till 5 mins before I have to go to work just from feeling so overwhelmed at the thought of dealing with people all day and trying to understand everything. I have also developed a twitch in my left eye which I havnt had for a while

    I have my dental operation tonight so very scared about that. I have only been able to get one of the two bad teeth done but its by far the worst one so hoping and praying the other one doesnt give me too much trouble. 

    I have also found out yesterday that Im getting paid way less than I should be for this job and my agency have been screwing me and lying to me so thats not good

    At the moment I feel like I am a bit more stable and calm than usual with it all but I dont know how long that will last. There is the fear of a breakdown around the corner potentially.

    Thanks for all the support everyone it means a lot 

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