It’s only Christmas Eve and I already am stressed

Hi guys thanks for you support it’s nice not to feel so alone . Yesterday evening got better I have to say we all sat down to watch a film and the noise died down . Today hasn’t been too bad it got a bit much after a few hours this morning so I made the excuses I need to walk the dogs and later again said I was changing for lunch .

Whilst it’s never the best experience Christmas dinner it wasn’t bad . No major issues . Until this evening I was sat in one room watching the TV with 3 other whilst the rest were watching something in a different room . Firstly when I went to the toilet my grandmother took my seat which she knew I was sitting in as I always sit there and had been for a few hours. She claimed she always sits there to see the TV it makes no difference to see the TV in another chairs . My mum knows I sit there as I don’t like being next to people when everyone’s around so she swapped with me so basically I was sat next to here on an end . I didn’t move my stuff ie drinks, snacks or sweets (a few wrappers)  I had been eating at the side of my chair . As they were watching a TV program .

I went upstairs to get changed I could hear my grandmother downstairs calling me scruffy, untidy and lazy . There’s been a few comments all day for the odd persons mainly this morning about  how many gifts I got etc . But This one really upset me, made me anxious and a little teary . I text my mum to ask why she was being like that . She replied with she talking  about you not clearing the table at the side of your chair . I heard my mum say why are you being like that you know she has a lot on and you took her seat . She went oh she always the same and doesn’t do anything expects everyone to run round for her. 

I am so surprised as I have made the Christmas cake from scratch which have been feeding for over 8 weeks and then I spent hours decorating yesterday, I did the starters this for lunch two types as grandmother along with two other don’t eat prawns ! Oh and I also did breakfast for 3 as I don’t eat what the adults have but would eat something the “kids” eat so made there’s too.

She knows I have a lot on I have only been able to have 24-26th off from uni work so this isn’t enjoyable . Currently sat crying in my room because I have enough stress never mind my family hating me . 

My mums trying to be supportive and says we will go away next year as we used to when I was a early teen as it was to stressful . She keeps trying to get me down stairs .

I think tomorrow I am gonna do some uni work am lock myself in the office . As they wake up and become noisy I will take the dogs for a few hour walk and then go to another relations as they are away and happy for me to use the spare key to do work if needed . 

Hi guys thanks for you support it’s nice not to feel so alone . Yesterday evening got better I have to say we all sat down to watch a film and the noise died down . Today hasn’t been too bad it got a bit much after a few hours this morning so I made the excuses I need to walk the dogs and later again said I was changing for lunch .

Whilst it’s never the best experience Christmas dinner it wasn’t bad . No major issues . Until this evening I was sat in one room watching the TV with 3 other whilst the rest were watching something in a different room . Firstly when I went to the toilet my grandmother took my seat which she knew I was sitting in as I always sit there and had been for a few hours. She claimed she always sits there to see the TV it makes no difference to see the TV in another chairs . My mum knows I sit there as I don’t like being next to people when everyone’s around so she swapped with me so basically I was sat next to here on an end . I didn’t move my stuff ie drinks, snacks or sweets (a few wrappers)  I had been eating at the side of my chair . As they were watching a TV program .

I went upstairs to get changed I could hear my grandmother downstairs calling me scruffy, untidy and lazy . There’s been a few comments all day for the odd persons mainly this morning about  how many gifts I got etc . But This one really upset me, made me anxious and a little teary . I text my mum to ask why she was being like that . She replied with she talking  about you not clearing the table at the side of your chair . I heard my mum say why are you being like that you know she has a lot on and you took her seat . She went oh she always the same and doesn’t do anything expects everyone to run round for her. 

I am so surprised as I have made the Christmas cake from scratch which have been feeding for over 8 weeks and then I spent hours decorating yesterday, I did the starters this for lunch two types as grandmother along with two other don’t eat prawns ! Oh and I also did breakfast for 3 as I don’t eat what the adults have but would eat something the “kids” eat so made there’s too.

She knows I have a lot on I have only been able to have 24-26th off from uni work so this isn’t enjoyable . Currently sat crying in my room because I have enough stress never mind my family hating me . 

My mums trying to be supportive and says we will go away next year as we used to when I was a early teen as it was to stressful . She keeps trying to get me down stairs .

I think tomorrow I am gonna do some uni work am lock myself in the office . As they wake up and become noisy I will take the dogs for a few hour walk and then go to another relations as they are away and happy for me to use the spare key to do work if needed .